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Hi all, I hope everyone is keeping well. I’ve been feeling pretty good about myself of late, so that’s some good news for me. Though there’s not much in the way good news in the media. My last few posts delt with my somewhat muddled thoughts around reciprocity, so thanks for baring with me through that. I just that I have a feeling that we are headed that way, I think its important that we talk about it. Some might say its just a fantasy, that’s ok. Though I just can’t shake the feeling that it’s the direction in which we are headed.

If it is that we are looking to create equal opportunity in the world, it stands to reason that we drop those things that are a barrier to education, nutrition, health and social care. The biggest barrier is poverty, this bit reciprocity. Looking myself to go back into education to better my options and open  up opportunities for myself, I find it hard. It is complicated and restricted by access to funding, I have to worry about paying rent and other bills. Coupled together with the soring cost of living it’s a rather daunting prospect, in my view needlessly difficult when its already a difficult thing to do. It may be so that I cannot go back into education or training because of fiscal restrictions, making opportunities rather limited to me. Whereas someone in a better position has these opportunities available. This story a feel plagues people in education of all ages.

Given that yes, I may have squandered a lot of opportunities in my life. Opportunities I should have taken at younger age. For example, Perhaps I shouldn’t have left school at sixteen. Though that was compounded by my learning difficulties and stress of bullying for both my disabilities and that fact I came from a poor family. I never had the cool cloths, the new toys nor did I keep up with current trends and the like—too I was a rather sickly child.  All that was for me a barrier to education that could have been made better without the fiscal restrictors, opportunities for me were always limited and restricted, its fare to say I did not have equal opportunities growing up. That’s not to say I didn’t work or contribute, I work hard running my own business for just over ten years. Till mental health problems became compounded and resulted in a first episode psychosis, loosing my job, my confidence and feeling of self-worth. Now that it is I wish to rebuild my life after a year of hard work getting to a place, I feel I can do that– I find once again that I don’t have equal access to education and opportunities.

I guess it kind of sticks in my crow a bit, I can see a world that is without such restrictions. Its so close and yet it is so far. My future at the moment is uncertain, its not a nice feeling. I feel for the poor children like I was, that will have their opportunities limited through no fault of their own. I won’t a better life for them. I wont them to have equal access to opportunities, wither they take them or not is another question– we cannot control outcomes. I just feel that it would be a much better world, a much fairer world if would learn to live without money. It’s a long shot, yet I feel on some level that it is inevitable. So it is that we would have to do it in a way that the hold up the individual as paramount, not the current trend of collectivism.

Anyway, thanks for reading my ramblings. Stay well all.

Published by Engine Mortale

Engine Mortale is my chosen pseudonym, I’ve chosen a pseudonym because I think it most appropriate as some of work will be rather personal. I figured this was the best way. I’m an autodidact, my to prominent fields of study’s are behaviour and philosophy, most recently art and poetry have been of keen interest. I hope genuinely that some good comes out of my out of this thing i call a life, if nothing else just that.

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