I figured out what I lost, I lost my emotional attachment to these topics. Which I guess is a good thing from an analytic point view, however not form a romantic point of view. The romanticists held that emotion, beauty and reason should go together. That philosophy should be poetic, beautiful and reasoned.
It’s an interesting thought that, far removed from the rigged bland analytic philosophy that’s most prevalent in the world today. The romanticists believed that everyone should be involved in the process of philosophy and science. They believed that the absolute was the whole and that because we lack a view from nowhere, the absolute was indefinable.
That’s something I can dig, I would like to get back to that emotional connection with philosophy (passion), explore poetry and art in a more meaningful way.